It has nothing to do with something extrernal

The block, or stuck you think you are in has its root cause in you, and in you alone. Don't look for it or for relief outside of yourself. You will not find it there. Instead, look inside of yourself, where all the universe is. But, forcing things to happen outside and blaming external circumstances are negative attitudes.They are useless, and will lead you nowhere.

Remember how the elephant could find the heart of palm it lost in the water. After having rigorously and angrily disturbed water and searched for it unsuccessfully everywhere in the river for a long time, the elephant very upset, felt very stuck and tired, not knowing what else to do. A fog, passing by, told him to calm down and remain still, so that water gets clear. The elephant followed and applied its advice and, after a while, the river became clear again and the heart of palm could be found.

The amazing thing about you is that you possess knowledge intellectually, but you are not convinced enough, like the elephant before in the story, at the point to apply it in your own life. The first reason is that you are not constant and consistent about a chosen path. You try many things or many paths at the same time, not following one of them to its end. What you are doing is merely jumping from one technique or teaching to another all the time. And this is the sure recipe for failure.

The second reason is that you seem to appreciate knowledge for knowledge, just for the feeling of joy (the joy to know), satisfaction, amazement, or specialness you get from it. However, knowledge is not to be hidden inside of you. It is to be applied, or it vanishes or dies. But, you seem to not give enough time to apply what you learn. You believe that in itself, knowledge is enough for the improvement of your life. This is a lie.

This stanza is perfectly clear about the subject: "Although a man may be book learned, if he doesn't apply what he knows, he is like a blind man who, with a lamp in his hand, cannot see the road".

You see, Applying is really a key point in your path to success. But, to apply does not mean necessarily to be perfect or to succeed overnight. Far from that. That means to exercise, to practice and to do training constantly and consistently moment to moment, day by day, like a athlete, until what you learned is transformed into an habit recorded in your subconscious mind. Results, therefore, become almost instantaneous and automatic externally, when time comes.

You would ask when and how to apply what you learn. The answer is very simple. Know that every waking moment of the day is an occasion to apply the knowledge you now possess. There is no specific time for that. But, above all, don't expect a particular result; they will take care of themselves instantaneously, as said earlier, at the right time. That's how it works, and not another way around.

Also, be kind to yourself and love yourself. Most of the time it is not the case. Because when you entertain toxic thoughts and feelings such as impatience, frustration, anger, resentment, fear, worry, anxiety, doubts and so on, you pollute your mind and all your being. That does not do good to yourself.

Remember that God loves you eternally and unconditionnaly. And if this is true about God Himself Who created His loving Son, it should be true about you. Who are you to be against the will of God? Therefore, be good and kind to yourself, encourage yourself, celebrate yourself, forgive yourself and love yourself, just like Fhe father for His beloved Son that you are.

Think about it and...

...Stay synchronized.